rolodex

she who is me, 

made for her he

despite current toxicity 

just wants this all over. 

the loads are heavy on her shoulders.

she who is me,

made for her he

despite current toxicity 

is getting bolder and older. 

she who is me,

made for her he

despite current toxicity 

is tired of these boulders. 

he sees his decisions 

were self-inflicted incisions. 

feeding the fear he had for years

to never choke in fiscal broke.

the rolodex wasn’t worth whack marital sex.

the rolodex was his focused network. 

that network isn’t bigger than God’s Worth.

that network wasn’t worth swallowing hurt.

that network wasn’t worth hiding behind pride. 

that network wasn’t worth making gem-eye 

the legalized lie as his bride by covered demise.

that newspaper article was a timely toxic crater 

of slums in sins to never be godly biblical wins.

short-cuts aren’t biblical or ordained.

a forced four month arrange won’t change

anything in this regrettable situation.

gem-eye thought she bought the cost 

to never be lost, because she fought 

to never get caught, and now his missus.

the hissed dissed poisonous kisses

should be parted, according to gem-eye

like a Red Sea biblically, even though 

God said no, gem-eye’s now married.

that means God has to now make this biblical

even though the foundation was unethical.

becoming a missus never changed his moves 

regardless if she’s 

unloved, 

unseen,

or uncovered. this brother became a lover. 

after she took the wrong bow: chow to purity.

gem-eye was about fiscal status and security.

all she got was regurgitated glassed molasses. 

being his missus didn’t remove the stings 

of being disrespected or neglected

in those wrong throng song wedding rings.

gem-eye wants to be seen but is overlooked. 

God sees gem-eye but He’s not her hook.

gem-eye wants validation in her stinging rings. 

gem-eye wants validation in that community. 

gem-eye wants validation her way not God’s.

gem-eye wants ordained blessings in flesh. 

gem-eye is her own facade playing god.

none of her moves are biblical or ordained. 

gem-eye was determined to turn the burns

of her hit it and quit it misfit to this legal legit.

gem-eye is lonely but refuses to quit

her empty dried up sexual confetti phony.

he sees the lies of this gem-eyes

weren’t worth it. gem-eyes wasn’t worth it.

gem-eye’s nothing but strife 

as his coached poaching plight wife. 

he met his goal of gold 

but does it give him peace in his soul?

does he breathe with ease or is he displeased?

is he begrimed with his unsatisfied release?

gem-eye thought she was fly with light eyes.

gem-eye used her eyes to mesmerize why’s.

gem-eye currently ran out of tricks.

gem-eye has no clue her untrue hue is through. 

gem-eye needs the Cross of Calvary. 

it doesn’t hurt enough to be ignored 

even though gem-eye is floored 

because missus are supposed to be adored.

gem-eye thought she bought love.

through the popularity of her he’s community

but she sees no one receives or believe

her as his beloved she who’s meant to be. 

gem-eye wants to be his ordained missus.

gem-eye is a winced convinced eclipse diss. 

gem-eye and her lies are ugly mockeries. 

God has the final say and the way

to the Obey of Today and is always on time.

God is above rewinding of the humanistic mind.

God is Above ungodly finds and lines

like gem-eye and her positioned condition.

she who is me, 

made for her he

despite current toxicity 

just wants this all over. 

the loads are heavy on her shoulders.

she who is me,

made for her he

despite current toxicity 

is getting bolder and older. 

she who is me,

made for her he

despite current toxicity 

is tired of these boulders. 

he sees his decisions 

were self-inflicted incisions. 

feeding the fear he had for years

to never choke in fiscal broke.

does he see lies are a joke?

does he see fiscal envy is an ongoing provoke?

does he see gem-eye evokes only ungodly?

does he see gem-eye is his Hagar to Abram?

does he see gem-eye is his Leah to Jacob?

does he see gem-eye is not godly prosperity

or never will be, because she’s not his her

in the path to Kingdom Math 

of he + he + her equals God’s Stir?

does he see gem-eye is two strand quicksand?

does he want to be biblically set free faithfully?

she who is me has questions unanswered.

she who is me waits in prayerful stillness 

for this messy deliverance and hinderance. 

she who is me prays the rolodex and network 

was worth all of this deliberate belligerence.

she who is me cannot believe 

Love and Basketball escaped him.

she who is me is the Lathan to Epps.

money made him slim and grim.

money made him forget love is from Above.

she who is me only sees money were his keys.

she who is me battles to receive he’s free.

she who is me is tired and wired.

she who is me wants to sleep in peace. 

she who is me is over the unease displease.

she who is me just want her he already.

she who is me is over barbaric popularity.

she who is me chooses to lose boldly, and 

believe in what Her King with her rings says:

You will see

Trust Me

Pray

Survive

Wait

she who is me decides to hide in His Wings

because he who is greater is The Creator.

Emmanuel God with us controls the patrol 

of ashes to ashes and dust to dust. 

gem-eye already combusted from lustful rust.

only The Messiah is gem-eye’s Provider. 

for He’s Jehovah: ready to be her shoulders.

does gem-eye want to let go of strife for life?

she who is me is ready and steady to flee

from all worldly toxicities and be set free

biblically and faithfully for all humanity to see.

she who is me knows growth is in the unknown.

she who is me knows rolodex are clones.

she who is me knows networks are drones.

worldly chases will always feel like alone cases.

without God as the center nothing is better.

without God as the center nothing’s together.

without God as the center there’s no unity.

without God as the center there’s mutiny.

without God as the center worship is lost.

without God as the center The Cross is invalid.

Emmanuel didn’t die for humanity to combust 

in the slums of sinning not winning lust.

Emmanuel God with us died to be revived 

so humans can trust and thrive biblically

through the submission of the Holy Spirit.

Emmanuel died for adoption as our inheritance.

The Cross of Calvary is above 

gem-eye’s lies and mesmerized demise.

The Cross of Calvary is above 

the choke of fiscal evoking provoking broke. 

The Cross of Calvary is above 

the she who is me rainbow raw emotions. 

God makes all things new.

God and his will is the only hue of truth.

Thank you Constant One.

Love your leaping daughter.

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