when I don’t know what to do
I always turn to You for my walkthrough God.
You are the only hue that’s true breakthroughs.
she who is me decided to be set free biblically.
she who is me and I, laid down all lies & pride.
when she’s overwhelmed,
she binge eats or drifts to sleep.
she had no food & Jojo* was used
to break the chain of her ruse
as Jojo refused for her to be weak in sleep.
she’s cheap and doesn’t want to leap.
she’s the her in God’s Stir:
he + He + her is going to occur.
she don’t know what to say
to what God keeps displaying
in His Supernatural Timing Way.
she’s not okay with this arrange,
because it’s tangibly strange &
looks so insane to her overwhelmed brain.
God is saying the impossible is sea parted.
she created an expectation
to reject that promised biblical dedication.
when she scribed
the painful lines in Unpopular
this vision was no longer spectacular.
It’s easier for her to believe
and receive they’re not to be supernaturally.
But God is saying only He holds this key.
& the he God says is for me in His Stir,
is awakened, transformed & reborn.
according to God who’s loud in this ground.
she doesn’t know how to grow with this flow.
she thought he didn’t want three strands ever.
she thought he’d always want that quicksand,
that’s full of lies that makes that stake of fake
suffocate biblical truth, and walk drunken aloof.
Unpopular was a mental switch of no use,
all she saw and felt made her heart melt.
the he God says is for she who is me
intentionally sleepwalked for so long
in the slums of his sinning tailspins,
with the woman he flees in misery of
that two strand marital quicksand delivery.
he thought he had all the answers in his plans.
she’s foolish to rise above in love
when his love was his ways and displays.
God is loud in sounds of this promise ground.
he said to me: eleventh month/twenty-thirteen.
she doesn’t believe or receive that dream.
that dream became a nightmare, because
he was always aware of the she he’s meant
to be in the land of Kingdom Math: 3 Strands.
so why does this have to be after the woman
he decided to flee in misery with?
because he sees it isn’t worth the hurt & dirt.
she feels like a default of looking back salt.
she kept going and fighting for growing.
she was determined to be unsalted:
and walk the talk as salt of the Earth.
she was determined to have her pain
of his selfishness be a deliverance gain
& platform for daughters to never settle
and swallow a hallow foul
in the sexual bow & allow disrespectful
by neglectful treatment like the woman
who was desperate to be in this man’s
space, even if treatment was in a disgrace
of the lane of shame disdain quicksand.
this woman didn’t focus on the foundation
that’s now creating so much pain in vain.
at the time in this woman’s mind: his contest
was the only way for this man to be okay
with this woman in his space. this woman’s
mission was an aggressive decision to be his.
two years later, the woman isn’t walking the
talking of the self-created incision envisioned.
he doesn’t celebrate this woman organically.
he didn’t support this woman’s family charity.
he didn’t display the intentionally in the way
this woman wanted. this woman is forgotten.
the legality of this two strand irregularity,
doesn’t change this is a strange barbarity.
this woman has the title of missus, yet the
display from this man is brother to little sister.
this man never switched to husband.
this man doesn’t see this woman as his wife.
there’s a loud dark cloud over this marital land.
only God has the solution to this dilution.
she doesn’t want to hear about this lair.
she’s over there and away from this decay.
she’s overwhelmed by this supernatural realm.
God is the loudest when she’s drowning
out this supernatural connection in reflection.
for her protection, she sets to be aggressive in
the shielding of God’s Business for deliverance.
she’s overwhelmed her dreams are currently
coming to past when she dismissed them.
she was fooled by the woman’s tangible tools.
she’s over this storyline of drunken foolishness.
she’s over her focused scribing rhymes.
she wants a new assignment in lyrical times.
she wants a new focus from this ungodly locus.
she’s okay with singleness as her display.
she sees it’s safe and she won’t get hurt again.
she doesn’t want a repeat of that retreat in defeat.
she can’t afford to be hurt by this man’s dirt.
there’s no worth in slums of sinning tailspins.
he doesn’t want to be what he’s called to be,
according to she who is me obediently.
Unpopular isn’t for everyone.
Purpose isn’t for everyone.
Deliverance isn’t for everyone.
Three strands isn’t for everyone.
Obedience isn’t for everyone.
The road less traveled isn’t for everyone.
so she received his message, because
actions are louder than words that occurred.
she’s overwhelmed by God’s Stir equaling
he + He + her: His Promise coming to pass.
God saying he’s changed is overwhelming.
God saying he’s coming is overwhelming.
she’s fighting to stay afloat after losing
the world’s perspective of everything.
she’s staying in the layers of prayers
about being unemployed and in a shelter.
she’s staying hopeful about these interviews.
she’s excited about completion of these classes.
so this God stuff about this man isn’t good timing.
she doesn’t like this describing.
It doesn’t fit her stir, but God’s Stir equals
he + He + her, which is the Kingdom Math.
she thought she wanted this two years ago.
walking through all her hidden pains, she
sees she wasn’t biblically ready for this man.
God answered her prayers of breaking chains,
generational curses & securing her purity.
she sees she’s free from generational toxicities:
living out parent’s destinies instead of God’s
children out of wedlock
& premarital sex.
she couldn’t bring any of this to Olive & April or
Samuel & JJ her twins God showed her or
any of her other children God will bless her with.
she couldn’t be that selfish to bleed in weeds.
she has a genealogy to protect & be set free.
so when God is showing her this man is the key
she doesn’t know how to receive and believe.
she’s overwhelmed but she’s open to being free.
God will show her this biblical possibility,
because she’s ready to take this leap faithfully
to finally achieve His Stir: he + He + her.
*names changed for privacy purposes. #TeamProPrivacy