all she sees is God.
she moves out of God’s way
for God to remove what’s not made to stay.
she allows the bow
from the fouls of her hallow swallows.
she allows the scandals
of her channels to be dismantled.
she allows the clock to stop.
she allows God to cancel her facades.
these are ruses that feed fused abuses.
there’s many reasons in this trying season.
her heart isn’t right and full of strife.
she sees plight in His Sight.
He sees the Light of Jesus Christ.
He sees reprieve to believe.
He sees deliverance in forgiveness.
she sees toxicity and rejects this prospect.
she struggles and crumbles in fumbles
of her specifics in prefixes. He wants her to let go.
but if she lets go then she won’t know:
what happens next?
what was the purpose of Saturday’s encounter?
that encounter doesn’t fit her ideologies
that she will never see that he again.
she sees he’s a lion’s den that doesn’t want more.
so she let go of that being God’s Glory
in her story, because she desires to go Higher in God.
that he has been so scary and a liar
that created an unhealthy space of hidden disgrace.
that he has a mutant community
that falls in line to his slimed life of no light.
she just wants to see what God needs,
but she doesn’t want that he because he’s scary.
she doesn’t want his lies or fiscal lullabies.
she doesn’t want his harmful flirtatious charm.
she doesn’t want the demise of his wandering eyes.
she doesn’t want the half-assed commitment.
she doesn’t want the half-assed attempts.
she doesn’t want his up and down sounds.
she doesn’t want his confusion delusions.
she doesn’t want his immaturity.
she doesn’t want his excuses: they’re useless.
she doesn’t want his mind-games: they’re lame.
she doesn’t want his empty words of dirt.
she doesn’t want his cheap creeping cheats.
she doesn’t see the hype of this man:
he’s nothing but painful quicksand.
she stopped pretending being okay with God’s Stir.
this he + He + her shouldn’t occur, it’s a choking joke.
this he is a bloke that’s selfish and inconsiderate.
this he is heartless and focused on what’s best for him.
this he doesn’t care about who gets hurt.
this he has a billion dollar reasons for his treasons.
this he only cares about tangibility and what’s the scene.
this he only cares about ugly popularity.
this he doesn’t desire Higher in God’s Purpose.
she doesn’t want this he to come near her ever.
her King that makes her soul sing
won’t guarantee that he isn’t staying away.
there’s nothing but messy decay’s and delays.
his way is his highway of puppet strings and stings.
foolishness is the ready rings his way not God’s.
lukewarm is his storm and his only conform.
she’s not interested in his deliverance.
she’s not interested in seeing he’s changing.
she saw enough and gave up.
she made a switch 14102017.
she boxed him and his nonsense.
the switch should be the only see.
she wants to move on and be uplifted
without this he being apart of her story.
the actions that he showed is his permanent go,
and that’s the flow she will forever go with.
she will continue to reject his nonsense.
there’s no deliverance in this he’s messiness.
actions speak louder than words.
this he’s actions are not of God.
confusion is not of God.
wandering eyes is not of God.
lying is not of God.
money being the workaholic hideout
is a cowardly cop-out and not of God.
she sees he’s not of God.
she wants only God.
it’s hard to believe what God sees.
she doesn’t want anything to do with this he.
he’s illogical, messy, and can’t be trusted.
he can’t cover or protect her who is me.
this he never covered or protected anybody.
this he thinks blood family is all that matters.
when blood family could be the most dangerous.
the Bible teaches believing souls Jesus came to separate:
mother and daughter,
father and son,
brother and sister.
God tells us who’s family not the world.
this he has worldly views and ideologies.
this he doesn’t love biblically.
this he only cares about his money.
she only trusts God not that he,
because he’s grim, slim, and a liar.
she’s in the wings of God.
he’s in the stings of his facades playing god.
to her she sees the two shall never meet.
she sees he’s nothing but defeat,
and she will never let him lose her peace.
he’s not worth the risk or the leap of faith in.
that’s what she sees and believes.
his actions hasn’t changed in four years.
there’s trails of tears and secrets he keeps.
he’ll never change and continue to arrange
tear-stained pain with no godly gain;
and insane hurt with no worth all in vain.
she was spared by walking away from that decay.
she wants to see a different story than this he.
this he is incapable of being apart of His Glory.
she’ll never stop seeing mind-games and lies.
that’s all this he has displayed as his broken lullaby.
she sees and pays attention to what’s not said.
she sees and pays attention to what’s not done.
she pays attention to consistency. she sees that’s key.
money will always be this he’s funny honey.
money is all this he counts on and trusts.
money is temporary and empty combust of distrust.
money will never fix his heart.
money will always keep an unsafe space
between him and God. money is empty confetti.
money will never buy love of real God-friends.
money will never fill the void in his heart.
this he works all the time in vain.
there’s still pain in his hiding shame.
that’s his problem. she sees she’s free.
she’s moved on from this he’s stagnancy.
it’s a blessing he’s scary. she stays clear away.
God backs her up on keeping her away from him.
she sees she can only count on God not humans
in the intrusions of delusional solutions.
she sees things are healthier with her parents.
she sees things are slowly coming together.
she sees her life is starting to get on track
from all the back to back setbacks
in this heartbreaking soundtrack.
she’s thankful for everything,
because she sees she’s where
God needs her to be faithfully.
she sees everything differently.
this he wants lies that make him die. Okay.
this he wants his messiness of loneliness. Okay.
that’s not her see or her belief in that carnal grief.
she wants Higher as His Lighter.
this he’s empty flesh is brokenness, and
has nothing to do with her supernatural deliverance.
they’re from two different perspectives and worlds.
she finally wants nothing to do with this he.
she sees this is the best space to be.
she sees she’s at ease with all of this.